Yoga: 20 minute DVD
Other: therapy
Bloating: 9
Cramping: 4
BM Satisfaction: 5 (Must. Drink. More. Water.)
I feel like I made a body-image breakthrough today. Yesterday in this blog I was hating on those niggling 5 pounds, but today I said to my therapist, "I would rather be 5 pounds over my ideal than 20 pounds under it". And what's more, I actually meant it!
Yes, finding clothes that fit my seam-busting boobs and not-negligible tummy is tougher. But good god, this is RIDICULOUS. I have a HOT body. No, I am not tall and leggy, with a flat stomach and a 24" waist. But I am petite and curvy, with tiny hands and feet, slim ankles, a round bottom, muscular calves and an outstanding cleavage. I have a biggish nose, but I have beautiful eyes. My lips are on the thin side, but my teeth are spectacular. I could spend the next 50 years loathing the bad parts, or I could revel in the good. I am sexy. And you, dear reader (if indeed this blog ever gets read), are sexy too. Cuz if only supermodels were sexy, the human race would have died out a long time ago.
I still feel the compulsion to make my body the "best" it can be - strength, flexibility, tone and shape. But I also am coming to see that the raw materials, the nuts and bolts of my body, aren't so bad.
On an unrelated note... I was quite busy at work today and ate both breakfast and lunch on a bit of a tense, revved-up tummy. And, sure enough, the food hit it like a rock, and it was insta-bloat. I need to find ways to relax before I eat, otherwise it's just a downhill spiral. I could start by getting to bed early, so that I can wake up early, so that I am not running late to work and then getting to my desk and eating breakfast in that state. Which means I am gonna hit the hay right now!
Love the shit out of yourself. That's it, really. Just fall in love with your loveliness.
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